Well here I am again. I've been throwing myself into uni work, and now I'm taking a little break, so here I am JU. Just a catch up I guess. I don't actually know who will read this, but I shall write it anyway. First on my agenda is the American election, don't worry this isn't going to be long, I'll leave that to the politic masters of JU. All I have to say is, I'm slightly disappointed, and I can't believe it's dragged out so long. I actually got rather excited about it, and I'm still keeping my eye out for further news. My sleeping has been fabulous recently. I don't know what's wrong with me. Should that even be 'wrong'. Maybe I don't know what's right with me, that is more to the point. I have been sleeping loads and loads though. Since Saturday I have been a little poorly with a cold that I just can't shift, and I didn't sleep well Friday night. From then though, I have slept brilliantly. I'm still a little poorly, but I have been getting about 12 hours sleep a night AND a few hours in the afternoon too. I must be catching up on all them hours that I missed out on. My parents are fussing. It's quite nice, I've been getting breakfast in bed, I'll have to be sick more often!
I'm finally feeling a little better about things. I didn't think I would be. The whole getting my head straight thing though, I think I'm finally getting there. Not totally, I've had a think about things, made a few decisions about my future. Realised a few mistakes I've made and I'm feeling a whole lot happier about things. I thought I had made a mistake about someone, and I tried to rectify it. They made it clear there was no hope there, and even though that's sad, that seems to have given me a clearer perspective on things, and is allowing me to move on. At least I know. It's amazing how you can be wrong about people. Oh so wrong. You put all this time into them. Devote so much, and then it falls to bits. That's life though, just another learning experience, and you have to be glad of the positives these people give you. Now is the time to move on though, as sad as it is. As long as you aren't in a state of you don't know whether to go backwards or forwards. I am definetly ready to move forwards. Quite exciting really. I'm going to do something I have wanted to do, since I can remember, and now at this point I don't see why I shouldn't.
A family update, they are still totally insane. My sisters been in Italy for the week, lucky so and so. She's back now though. Her and little Maddy Mae are fine. Madison is just getting bigger and bigger, it's astonishing the rate they grow at. Seriously, she'll be one, next month, it feels like only yesterday I was at the hospital holding this tiny little thing I was scared I was going to drop. Now she's crawling all over the place, and is totally into everything. It's fab though. My sister is going back to work in Jan, and Maddy Mae will be starting nursery, scary! I don't really want to trust anyone else with our baby, I suppose it's all part of growing up though. My other sister is stalking me at the moment. We still are barely on speaking terms, but she saw me on Saturday, and I looked really poorly, so she was worried, and hasn't stopped phoning me since. *sigh* I know she cares, and I know that in years to come I am going to regret not forgiving her. I just can't bring myself to at the moment. I think I'm making progress with her, and then she will just do something and it will remind me of the reasons I didn't forgive her in the first place. I'm sure I'll work it out at some point. My Uncle is a nightmare at the moment too. I won't go into details, just never mix family and money, it can only end badly! My parents are still on a D.I.Y craze. They are driving me insane with it. Instead of doing one room at a time, they are doing the whole house, and kitting it out in new stuff. They are building onto it too, and having something done to the roof, so we have workmen all over the place. Nightmare!
Onto other news.....do I have any? Bonfire night on friday, oh how I love it! I'm going to a party which should be good. I got asked out by a dude at uni too. He asked me out for a meal. I didn't know what to say. He's quite nice, but something was holding me back, I told him I'd let him know what I was upto. He's funny. I'm a sucker for funny men. If someone can make me laugh, that's it. I don't know I've just got something in the back of my mind saying it's not right. We'll see I guess. My best friends has been in Amsterdam this weekend. She kept me updated on her progress, I haven't seen her since she got back though. I should make the effort, I've just been busy with work and stuff, I'll have to get myself into gear, so much to sort out. Oh it's nearly xmas too, how exciting, hopefully I won't be in rainy England for that! Anyway, I think that's enough of a catch up. Hope you all ok, take care JU x