I feel a bit out of things at the moment. I'm spending less time here, and things have changed. Of course that is what happens with this site. It is evolving all the time, and we as a community are evolving. I don't really feel part of the JU community at the moment, and that is no ones fault but my own. I don't exactly know how or when it happened. I think I've just had other things on my mind and JU has just taken a back seat. Some people here I considered to be friends, turned out not to be. Some people I didn't really give a chance, turned out to be decent people. Some people turned out to be jerks. That is just the way it is with a community, you take the good with the bad. I really miss some people who aren't here. I know many people had issues with them, but they brightened up my days, and made me smile.
I have some favourite blogs that I read everyday. That I actually get upset if them people don't blog. You'd be surprised some of the people that are among my favourite blogs. Which leads me to my main problem. Comments. I have become awful at comments. I read fabulous blogs, that I am just totally amazed at the talent of the writer, but I am lost for comments, and just don't know what to say, so I end up saying nothing. I have always had a problem with comments, but at the moment I'm at a blank with them. Even on my own blog, lovely people take the time to leave me comments, and it takes me ages to get back to them. In a blogging community it is about give and take. I didn't realise it at the start, and I think I forgot it now.
I'm not bothered about points, I'm not bothered about being in the top ten. I love the writing, and the people. When people left that I was close to. I just concentrated on the writing side of things, and not the community side. Just kept writing stuff, because that is what I love to do. That is what I was like at the beginning too. I rarely read other peoples blogs. Then I got into it. I felt part of other peoples lives. I started to care about people, and it was nice. Really nice, and I miss that.
Now when I look at recent articles, and posts and go to peoples blogs. Alot of them are people I have never seen around here before. That makes me feel really out of the community. That some things have just passed me by. I do feel at times I have spent to much time here. Now though, I don't think it's about the time. I think it's about how you spend it. JU has done wonderful things for my writing, it's opened my eyes to so many issues. I won't forget that and I hope I can get back into the community spirit, I really do.