I think I will be ready to kill someone pretty soon. I'm reaching boiling point. I went through a phase not long ago of having a really poor sleeping pattern. I was going to be late and getting up far to early and I couldn't stop it. If I went to bed earlier I would just lie in bed wide awake. Unable to sleep, and well waking up early, you can't realy control that can you? Then it seemed to pass. I started getting relatively good nights sleep. Going to bed at a reasonable time, and waking up at a reasonable time. I don't know how or when it happened, but it did. I was so pleased, for about six weeks I enjoyed good nights sleep. I have never being the best of sleepers. So I was really pleased with this. Then in the last week my sleeping has gone insane again. So insane I'm actually missing the time where my only problem was not being tired early on. Now I still get tired at a reasonable time. I go to bed like a good girl, and then it starts. Do you ever have them nights sleep where you are fully aware of everything that is going on around you, but you think you're asleep? Then when you wake up in the morning, you don't know if you actually got any sleep or not? That is what my sleep has turned into. Just one long pain in the ass. Of drifting in and out of the land of nod. With odd dreams that freak me out. I don't like it, and it's really frustrating me. I feel like I'm in a coma for the rest of the day, and the same pattern happens again.
I don't know what it is. I've looked up sleep deprivation and sleep problems on the net and they all seem to suggest that they stem from something else. Other problems. Maybe I just have things on my mind and need to chill out a bit. The lack of sleep is turning me into a monster though. I'm being horrible and abrupt to people, and a general nightmare to be around. I really hope it calms down a bit. If it doesn't I think I will go and see my doctor, though I really don't want to take sleeping tablets. There's something unnatural about them. I want a nice natural sleep! If I had a nap now, I would sleep perfectly. I'm not going to though, in hope I will have a nice full nights sleep tonight!