Oh, JU what have you done to me! I am starting to annoy myself, seriously, so god help those that have to put up with me on a daily basis. You see this whole blogging thing started off innocently, as a way of me writing my thoughts and feelings about things. You know a chick like me needs a place to waffle. I entered this innocently, knowing very little about blogging, and even less about this particular site. This was meant to be a diary. A diary of my very mundane life, but a place that I could come now and then to write something. For me. That's the important thing, it was for me! No one was going to read it. I wasn't going to have genuinely lovely people, support me, share things with me, make me laugh. No! This was not an interactive thing. Nooooo! Why would anyone be interested in what I have to say?
I also thought I would write twenty articles here max, run out of things to say, or just lose interest and move on. That's my honest thoughts. I thought no one will leave comments, I won't have anywhere to be inspired. I am not an interesting person. I will start to bore people. I saw these people who had wrote 100+ articles, and I couldn't understand how they had done it. Did they just repeat themselves alot? I mean there is only so much that people can say surely? At the start I struggled for things to write on my blog. Call it a lack of imagination, call it not really sure what I was doing, I don't know. So instead of writing blogs about crap. I investigated the site. I wanted to see what was going on. I read other peoples blogs. I was obviously far to scared to comment, but I read them. All sorts of things. Things my mind was closed off too. Things I had never showed interest in. It was an insight into all different people, all different lives, all different worlds. It was great, and inspiring. Then it happened.
I became even more opinionated, and I became, in a word, obsessed. I'm not claiming to be a JU obsessive, though you may draw your own conclusions. No I became obsessed with changing the world. Oh yes my friends. My blog is changing the world. Please just work with me here, in my own deluded little world ok? You see I have this huge fear of not being listened too. I have lots to say, sometimes far to much for my own good. I know this, but I sometimes felt that I couldn't talk to people the way I wanted to. I don't want to preach, I don't want to change the way people think. I just want to share the way I think, and hopefully learn from the way others think. Is that so bad? I get wound up by things in the news. I see things in my everyday life that I think awww thats's lovely, or that is so annoying. Here is a place I can share them things. Give my own little insight. I'm not super intelligent, I'm not a super writer, I'm not really super anything, but here is a place I can voice them opinions, that it would appear were just fighting to get out of me. Oh yes, were they fighting!
You see I have noticed something. Everything I look at is turning into a blog. I read things, and I'm already writing a blog about it in my head. Or is it I'm just forming an opinion? I sometimes worry that this is blogging taking over my small mind. I don't think that is the case though. It would appear this is the place I chose to hang my hat, and I quite like it. I like it that it makes me want to write about things, I like it makes me form opinions and feeling on things. I like that it gives me a voice. I also like that it gives all you a voice. That I listen to. What made me draw all these conclusions you ask? Well I had a moment. Our local paper has this section called "The postbag" where usually older members of the community write in to complain about something. The youth of today, society today, the world today. I always found these people rather sad. I thought haven't you got anything better to do, than complain? LOL! Ironic huh, as I was reading that paper the other day, and my head must have being in blogging mode, and I almost picked up a pen and paper and wrote off to that postbag on an issue that was bothering me! JU, you have changed me! You've made me an opinionated lass, who loves to share them opinions, and listen to others. For that I thankyou!