Sicky, sulky, Sally

YES! I'm ill.........

Published on June 11, 2004 By Sally jacobs In Home & Family

I'm warning you in advance the next however long I decide to torture you, is going to be just pure whinging and should be just ignored, really. I'm ill. When I'm ill I'm the worlds most awful person. Some people like to be fussed over, some like to go to the doctors, I like to be left alone. No fussing, no talking to people, just leave me alone. Why can't people understand this? I don't mean to sound ungrateful, but all I really want to do is crawl under my quilt and forget the rest of the world exists and sleep, for a long time. My family don't understand this, they are in and out, to keep me company, to feed me, to make sure I'm ok, to make sure I don't want anything. I know, it's nice, it really is, but what would make me feel really great is just to get to sleep, ahhhhhh sleep, how wonderful it sounds. Having said that I have slept on and off for most of the day, but it was a disturbed sleep, you know when you're aware of everything that is goin on around you, and you keep waking up and going back to sleep, that kind of sleep sucks.

I woke up this morning, shivering, feeling like crap, it was about 7am, my neck was sore from the stupid sofa bed, Maddy Mae was crying, and I knew it was going to be a bad day. I did some random puking, and I've been sneezing and had a constant headache and sickness all day. Maddy Mae's been ill to, which I feel bad about, I hope she didn't catch anything off me, that would make me feel awful. I really am a horrible person, I keep just shouting at people, I should be grateful they care really. If no one had asked me if I was ok all day, I'd be sat here writing a blog whinging about that, so the people around can't win really!

I did mention not to pay any attention to me didn't I, it's a mixture of sleep deprivation and huge amounts of self pity, not a good cocktail at all! So I was in the process of trying to force feed myself, not that I've managed to eat a thing all day, and my friend phoned, she's going on a date with some dude tonight and was looking for some encouragement and advice. HA! Like I'm in the mood to be Dr Lurve! I did my best though, it was all them first date nerves, what should I wear, what if I have nothing to say to him, usual kind of thing. Like I'm of any use in these situations, my words of wisdom (which were seriously lacking in the wisdom part) were to be just be yourself, and try not to worry because that will just make it worse. Yeah i'm helpful. SLEEP DEPRIVATION, my excuse for everything!

I'm going to try and get a couple of hours sleep...it's only 6pm, and then hopefully I'll feel slightly better, as long as people leave me alone. Which they won't, grrrrrr! I'm hoping to go to the gym tomorrow, my ass is going to get toned up, and then I need to do some shopping for Mason, and of course Euro 2004, so I need to be feeling better!

I'm sorry for the long moan folks, I hope you all have a wicked weekend, bye bye xxxxxxxx

Comments

MadPoet41

on Jun 12, 2004

When I'm ill I'm the worlds most awful person. Some people like to be fussed over, some like to go to the doctors, I like to be left alone. No fussing, no talking to people, just leave me alone. Why can't people understand this?

Sally~I hear you! I am the exact same way! I mean, a lot of the time my stupid depression leaves me so sick and out of touch that I have to avoid other folks big time. It's not because I don't appreciate their kindness or concern. It has more to do with keeping up appearances? I mean, it sure the heck is not all that easy to nod and smile and be witty and charming and everything when one is feeling like hell, huh? .

So don't blame yourself! Just try and take care of yourself as best you can, and get well soon. It's a shame you can't just hang a "Do Not Disturb" sign on your door~until you are completely yourself again. But I get the sense that you have a lot more contact with folks than I do. I do live by myself. But if my friends can't reach me for several days on the phone (or online) then they are hotfooting it over here and busting down my door! . And when I tell them I have simply been to ill to mingle with the human race for now~they act like I've gone completely mad or something! .

But being very ill is a quite private thing. Most folks just don't understand that. But I do big time! And I am wishing you a swift recovery, huh? Chin up! You're a good person, and you deserve to be having happy thoughts about yourself~just think of all the nice things you can do again once you are feeling more like your old self! Hang in there Sally~I'll be holding a good thought for you, and wishing for your complete recovery in a hurry! AND THANKS FOR SHARING THIS HONEST BLOG! I FEEL LIKE I KNOW YOU MUCH BETTER NOW~AND I CAN TOTALLY RELATE TO SO MUCH OF WHAT YOU HAVE SAID HERE. BEST WISHES!

~MadPoet

Sally jacobs

on Jun 12, 2004

Awwwwwww you are SO lovely, seriousy Lisa is very lucky.....I'm so embarassed about this blog, it was just a huge whinge, I'd just had no sleep and was feeling yucky, and was looking for an outlet....I'm feeling soooooo much better today, loads and loads, still sneezing a bit, and not much of an appetite but that will do my fat ass good, so yeah today is a much better day!

But I get the sense that you have a lot more contact with folks than I do. I do live by myself.

I live with my family, and I've got two sisters one with a baby, so it's a pretty busy house, we all on top of each other, so when you want some sleep it's really difficult I was just been a grump!

a lot of the time my stupid depression leaves me so sick and out of touch that I have to avoid other folks big time.

That hjust made me feel even more stupid for posting this, my problems are insignificant compared to others, thank you so much for your kind words though, they made me smile!

Floozie

on Jun 12, 2004

Hey babe,
Poor you! I am with you on the 'LEAVE ME ALONE!' sentiment. Some people seem to like being sick - they revert to this childlike state where everything is done for them and I swear they prolong their illness simply because they enjoy the fringe benefits so much! I view sickness as something you need to be efficient about - I don't want to be stuck in bed for days, so I'll do some hard core sleeping, keep away from everyone (especially as everyone seems to want you to pretend that you're OK when you're not just so that they can feel that they've done something) and put all your effort into getting over whatever it is you have.
One friend of mine is really motherly, and I was really sick with food poisoning and she just kept at me. 'Can I get you something?' 'Would you like a drink?' 'How about I get you some dry toast?' 'Would you like me to get you another blanket?'. I KNOW it's lovely and sweet and kind, but I kept saying to her that all I needed was to be alone. She kept at it, and me being the bitch that I am ended up yelling 'LOOK! LEAVE ME ALONE! THAT WILL MAKE ME FEEL BETTER! IF YOU HAD LISTENED TO ME FROM THE OUTSET I'D PROBABLY BE FEELING BETTER BY NOW!' then burst into tears.
I know how harsh that is. And I so didn't want to hurt her feelings, nor did I mean to, but I was so frustrated that no one was listening to what I wanted. People think that you are being really stoic. Nuh uh! Stoic my arse - selfish is more like it. Or just knowing what you need. My friend, luckily, finally got over what I had said - after I apologised profusely and bought her many drinks (and I should mention that my temperature was 39.5 degrees and I had been puking for two days) but could never understand why I didn't want her there.
THEN I saw her get sick. MY GOD! 'Can you get me this?' 'Can you get me that?' 'I'm dying' 'Can you plump my pillows?' 'If I get any worse we may have to call an ambulance' - Now I would expect this if she had been REALLY sick. But she had a cold. Not even the flu. A runny nose, sneezes - but not temperature or aches. She was in bed for four days. After the first, as horrible as it is I remained conspicuously absent. It is heartless, but I wanted to say 'For God's sake woman - pull yourself together'.
So basically I think the problem is that there are people who can see the silver lining of being sick and those who can't. Being one who can't you want it over and done with. Those who can are happy to boss people around until they're blue in the face.
The only solution is to keep as far away from each other when one of you is sick.
Hope you're feeling much better, babes.

Muggaz

on Jun 12, 2004

have a get better kiss from the mug man!!! I need you feeling better so we can chat about the upcoming tournament!!! also, you cant tell me the scores on here ok? They only way I worked out that i can watch the games is if I watch the replays at prime time... which is on at 7.30 and 9.00pm at night... and I am ever so happy about that!!! So, we will be a day behind, but you will do that for me wont you Sally?

BAM!!!

Sally jacobs

on Jun 12, 2004

Liitle whip I know exactly what you're saying, someone rang my mobile just as I was nodding off, and I answered and they could hear in my voice that they'd just woke me up, and they did the usual, oooh we didn't wake you up did we?? Then befor I could answer proceeded to talk AT me, grrr!

Heyyyyy Suz Hunny, I've missed you! I'm so hoping you've write a blog, I shall have a look after I wrote this! What a shock that you agree with me, hehe! My sister is one of them annoying people that thinks the world is going to end because she has a bit of a sniffle! It drives me insane, I admit to being grumpy when I'm ill, but people don't listen when I say leave me alone! Why can't they understand that I just want to sleep it off, and I'm better left just to get some rest than someone fussing all over me!

view sickness as something you need to be efficient about

Hehe! Soooo typical of you! Thanks for the get well wishes hunny, I'm feeling loads better, I've had loads of sleep, and it's done me good! Where you've you been??? Had any nice dates with hunky men...do tell!

Muggazzzzzz.....I wouldn't come to close, my grumpiness maybe catching!!! Thannks for the get well wishes, selfish or not, hehe! I'm so excited, not long before the first game kicks off!!!! I won't tell you the scores, as much as it may kill me, I won't say a word, if England spank France, and I'm dacing around like a maniac, I won't tell you, grrrr! You better be up for some good discussion about it though, hehe!

MasonM

on Jun 12, 2004

Sorry to hear you were feeling so bad. I don't get sick often, but when I do I do it right

I don't like to be bothered or fawned over when I'm sick either. Just leave me alone, let me be miserable, and I'll be perfectly happy.

Hope you're better soon.

and then I need to do some shopping for Mason,

Whatcha gonna buy me???

Sally jacobs

on Jun 12, 2004

Hehe!!!! What would you like??/ My friend just had a baby and called him Mason, good choice in name huh? Thanks for the get well wishes, I'm feeling better already!

MasonM

on Jun 12, 2004

An excellent choice of names.

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