Ooooh was so worried then, it wouldn't let me write an article! Noooooooooo, might be a blessing in disguise! Because I'm going to make no sense! I'm so tired, and still feeling kind of yucky, I think I'm in need of some TLC, hmmm, this may just be me because I'm a big baby, but I really just want my Mum, lol, such a kid, ahh well. This trail of thought got me thinking to when I was a little kid, how things have changed since then, and I really miss it! I mean don't get me wrong, I enjoy the freedom I have now, but how easy was things when you was a kid. You saw everything through innocent eyes, nothing was tainted yet. Everything was a learning curve, still is for me in a lot of ways, but I miss that innocence so much. That ease of living. When I was a little kid, I loved books, I still do now, but when i was a kid I got lost in these worlds created by Enid Blyton. Wow I loved her, she helped form my imagination as a child. All the fairies and pixies, and wizards and witches, amazing. My favourite was the faraway tree, hehe, still makes me smile now thinking of it. Then I moved on to Nancy drew and the Hardy Boys ( detective fetish maybe), but you could get lost in them books, you could imagine anything to be real.
I miss believeing in Father christmas, I can't wait till Maddy Mae's older, so we can do all the pretending again, is nice to believe in the impossible, there's some kind of magic about it. I watch dominic play with his friends, and lifes so easy, no worries, no fears, no realisation of how messed up the world can be. Ignorance is bliss, so true! Don't get me wrong, I don't want to be a kid again, it can be sucky to. No freedom, someone always telling you what to do, having to go school (though I quite enjoyed that), having a bedtime (hehe quite liked that to, at least i could sleep back then!).
I guess it will just be nice to see Mads go through these things, when she sees something new, when she believes in magical worlds only alive in your imagination, I kind of hope I never fully grow up. I like being childlike, lol that makes me sound so pathetic, but I like having them hopes and dreams, that maybe impossible, but that's not the case, nothing is impossible. As we grow up we just become more cynical, we realise our parents are just mere mortals, that sucks! you see more bad than you do good, or maybe that's just me hmmmmm!
I don't really know the point of this blog, and maybe it doesn't make sense, I'm in a sleepy state, so apologies, just thinking to be a kid for a day would be nice, just a day, then I'd be like I was through high school, wishing my life away! Grass is always greener huh!