The joys of living with insane sis :)

Family insanity!

Published on May 4, 2004 By Sally jacobs In Home & Family

Well it's my Mums 50th birrthday on Saturday, exciting family event, I can hardly wait

. Why can families be so damn annoying? I mean I love my family to bits, but I sometimes think living with them is a bad idea, if me and my eldest sister didn't live together we might actually be able to stand being in the same room as each other. She moved out when she was sixteen, and I was like six at the time, so I hadn't really experienced the joys of living with her, until now. Now I'm twenty and she's thirty and its like we've reverted to being kids again, it's seriously sad. We fight over the slightest things, whos using the bathroom first, is she wearing my clothes, it's so irritating. I sometimes think when I move out of here I won't want anything to do with her that I'll do my best to avoid her. I do now, and shes in the room right next door to me and I really do my best to avoid as little contact as possible. It didn't always used to be like this, when I was in my early teens I really looked up to her, I thought she was wicked, she had her own place, she'd let me stay there, and she'd let me do stuff my Mum wouldnt let me do, and it was great. I think half the attraction was that she didn't live by any rules, she was slightly insane, and at that impressionable age I thought that was fab, and I adored her for it. As the years of gone on, I've seen that fun side to her turn into something alot nastier, I won't go into detail but over the years shes got herself into more trouble than I'd care to remember, and some how shes managed to include the whole family in the mess that follows.

I'm the first to admit I'm far less patient than the rest of the family, if it was me I would of cut all ties with her a long time ago, she only thinks about herself and she'll hurt anyone that stands in her way of getting it. I sometimes think I'm a bad person for thinking like that, and I guess I am in a way, but I just can't forgive some of the things she's done, and I don't think I ever will. I don't dwell on them (apart from now!) but they are still there in the back of my mind and I don't think I'll ever fully forget them. My Mum and my other sister have a lot more time for her, but they are even getting tired of all the stuff shes doing and though I didn't think it was possible recently she's being even more insane than usual. As I've been writing this blog she's argued with my Mum, threatened to smash everything in the house and is now busy locking herself in her room, the sane behaviour of a thirty year old, I think not.

Back to the point of this blog, my Mums birthday, which is on Saturday. To celebrate we were all supposed to be going away for the week, well what started off as a week, but my Mum came to her senses and realised we'd kill each other, so its turned into a weekend break, at least for her darling daughters. I was looking forward to it, I haven't been away with my family since I was a little kid, but I'm starting to think its not such a good idea. I want my Mum to have a good time, and she has this thing about me and my sisters getting on and she tries to push us together, which just makes us resent each other even more, I can just see it leading to one big long weekend of fighting, and I don't want that. I want my Mum to have a good time, and I don't want to ruin that for her. So do I suggest that her and my Dad just go away, and make it a romantic break for them (gross!)? I don't want her to think i don't want to go! Or do I go and try my best to not fight with my sister, even though she's an insane fool. Hmmm....I'm kind of hoping my sister did such a good job of locking herself in her room, that it will take her at least two weeks to get out!!! Hehe, here's hoping!

Apart from all that stuff, I'm in a relatively good mood today I don't know why, I feel slightly more relaxed today than I have for a while, so all is good! Still gutted about Kermit, I don't really now what to say on that subject, he isn't going to read my blog anymore so I guess it doesn't matter what I say. I still want him, but I don't want to want him, does that make sense? I wish I had a switch where I could just switch my feelings off and be just ok, but I can't. Them feelings are still there, I still think about him in the same way, and I shouldn't, I'm not allowed

. Love sucks, but the way I see it you got to have the bad times, to appreciate the good times, and if I ever get good times again, damn I'm going to appreciate them. Who knows maybe good times with Kermit will come again, I live in hope. I'm not a fool though I know that's highly unlikely, I can't help but think that what we had was so special, surely it isn't that easy to lose it, I guess it depends on what he felt for me, hmmm. Anyway I see I'm making less and less sense so I'm going to quit while I'm ahead! Have a good day ppl xxxx

Comments

DylanZimmerman

on May 04, 2004

I'm an only child, so I don't know much about mad siblings, but I did always want a sister...you've kinda put me off the idea now!Maybe I'll stick to my friends!

Sorry to hear about ur Kermit. I just went thru a pretty nasty breakup at the beginning of the year- it was amiable, but it still hurt like hell. We're supposed to be "friends" but everytime I see him, even now, I still get this pang and i feel like i wanna curl up with some slushy music and be al bridget jones and pathetic! Try not to block out ur feelings, I think you'd really feel better if u just let urself feel the pain and then let it go- I know that sounds cheesy as hell, but it works. It'll help u get closure so u can move on. It's so hard when ur torn between knowing it's over and wanting nothing but to just be with him, and you think about him all the time and-aah!it's awful isn't it?But it's natural after someone has been such a big part of ur life for so long, and suddenly isn't, and you clearly felt very strongly about him. Just remember ur wonderful, and if he can't see that, there's plenty more fish in the sea! love and chocolate- Dyl xxx

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