Regrets

I have a few :)

Published on April 29, 2004 By Sally jacobs In Home & Family

You know what I've noticed, since kermit's been away my sleepings improved, not alot, but slightly, hmmm. Food for thought. He's back tomorrow, yay!! Can't wait, I've so missed him. I won't go on though, must tell myself be less gay! I wonder if it works both ways, that men prefer the women who play hard to get? I can't see it some how, men seem to like playing games less, and I can't say I blame them. Anyway let me not ramble as i will miss the point of todays blog, regrets! I didn't really plan this blog it sort of just happened, I was at work last night and it was really boring, I was basically there for four hours with no one but myself as company, and with not a whole lot to do, so i started writing my thoughts and stuff down, I carry a small notebook and pen with me where ever i go, I promise I'm not a geek, it's just something that I like to do. So I started writing and this is basically what I came up with. The twenty year old me compared to the sixteen year old me, and I've come to the conclusion I really miss that sixteen year old.

My life has become , not what I expected really. When I was sixteen and preparing to leave school I had big hopes, big dreams. My aspirations were alot higher. With time I've become alot wiser than I was then. Don't get me wrong, I'm still young, and by no means do I think i know it all, because I would be sadly mistaken, but I know a hell of a lot more than the sixteen year old. When I was sixteen I thought anything was possible, but as I've got older I've realised that things aren't that easy, and that's kind of sad. Maybe I just wasn't prepared to work for them as hard as I needed to, I don't know. i was more trusting at sixteen, where as now I hardly trust anyone. Now on one hand that's a good thing, it means I won't let people take advantage of me, that I'm aware not everyone is as they seem, that people are capable of hurting me. You know what though? The downside is, I actually liked to trust people, I liked seeing the good in people, I liked to think people were trustworthy. I think it's a fine line, trust people to a certain extent, but don't let them take advantage.

Even my writing has suffered, at one point I was actually good at writing, it seemed at sixteen/seventeen I wrote with no fear, I was open to new ideas, I explored them in my writing, I had a true passion for it, that I'm only just rediscovering writing these articles. I wrote some pretty good things a few years ago, mostly screenplays, or what i anticipated to be screenplays. I think I've lost that now, that capability to write so beautifully, i know I've lost it, i just hope that one day I can find it again.

I may have become less inspired but I have not lost hope. I ditched my screenwriting course for a teaching course (more sensible!). I'll be ditching my love of doing nothing for the University lifestyle, but I can't help but feel it's already to late. if I would have stayed on at Uni, finished the screenwriting course, where would I be now? Well in a weeks time I would be finishing the course, I would be looking for a writing job somewhere, looking forward to graduation. Instead I'm just starting, and starting something I have no passion for. You can't live your life with regrets though and at twenty years old I'm young enough to rectify the regrets I do have, so from here on out, no more regrets

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I've become rather addicted to this site, which is slightly worrying, but there are just so many beautiful writers on here, and I love all the different types of articles, the thought provoking ones, the everyday life ones, the funny ones, the sad ones, I thank them all for giving me inspiration.

Anyway, it's still early, and I've got a fun filled day of baby puke ahead, and you know what? I can't wait! It's only a day since I last saw Maddy Mae, and I miss her already

. We are going to Old Trafford to get her, her first football (soccer) kit and I can't wait!!!! Hope you all have a good day, bye bye xxxx

Comments

Sir Peter Maxwell

on Apr 29, 2004

Good article Sally, I didn't read it or anything but jolly good all the same.

But seriously I am reading all of your articles as you are my protégé on joeuser, so I wish to offer you encouragement to continue in this fashion.

Sally jacobs

on Apr 29, 2004

Awww you think I'm doing good??? You better have had read it Petey!

Sir Peter Maxwell

on Apr 29, 2004

Yes you are doing well dear girl, you are a better writer than i thought you would be.

I have made a link from my blog to yours Sally, that should ensure you a few hundred thousand visitors over the next few days. (i'm doing this in the hope you will allow me to mount you once again)

Sally jacobs

on Apr 29, 2004

I already noticed that Petey and I thought it was very nice of you and it is appreciated, still not going to let you mount me though, hehe!

DylanZimmerman

on Apr 30, 2004

Are you sure about this teaching course thing?I don't wanna be rude or anything, cuz obviously i don't know you or what's best for you, but sometimes if u take a risk and do the things you're most passionate about, it pays off. I don't see the point in just trying to be sensible and conform if u won't be happy, and get the most out of life. But you're right about no more regrets- the way i see it, if you did it and it was good, it was wonderful. if it was bad, it's experience. who is it that said "mistakes are the price one pays for a full life?".

You asked about the Holden thing?Not sure what you meant? am i being dumb? He's my best friend, and that's it. I just get mad at him occasionally, because i'm stressed sometimes, and he is a bit tactless by nature. Dyl, xxx

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