I've met some new people this week. As many of you know I am not really a social butterfly. I am more like a social slug. This isn't really down to an inability to get along with people, it is more down to the fact that I don't want too. I know that sounds awful, but I'm really not a people person. I like to have a close circle of friends, and people I trust, and I'm not really bothered about anyone else. I hate people phoning me all the time, people asking me to go out places all the time, and just general mithering. I prefer to be left alone, and when I want to do something, I will, without getting pushed and pulled in a million different directions. That's just me. I like my own company. I think some people think it makes me really miserable, but I don't agree. Not everyone can be the same. Anyway, I am getting off topic here. This week, I have made an effort with the new people I have met. To be that little social butterfly that everyone seems to want me to be. It was going pretty well. For like a day or so. Ha.

So I met these new people, and for the most part they were very nice. Obviously there is going to be exceptions to the rules, and I am fully prepared for dealing with people like that. I'll actually go as far as to say I liked these people. They shared a similar sense of humour to me, something that I consider to be very important, and I could talk to them quite easily. So everything was going well. There is about 8 people in this group of people. All of them a similar age to me. Most had done the whole going to uni thing, and studying, and by all accounts they had partied pretty hard during this time. Again, that's not really my thing, but each to their own. I understand that partying goes hand in hand with going to uni for alot of people. So when conversations turned to such things I just didn't really participate, and it wasn't a problem.

However, the converstation turned to drug taking, and what kinds of drugs people had taken on nights out and so on. Now I have a real problem with drugs. I hate them, and I will never ever take them. Now I realise that my position on drug taking is biased because of the bad experiences I have seen people I care about go through with them. I know that not everyones drug takings reaches them limits, and there are some people who can do it on a weekend, and that's it, and it just adds to whatever they are doing. Again, it might not be the most sensible of decisions on their part, but it is their choice, and they will have to live with the consequences of their choices at the end of the day. So when listening to things like this, I do try and judge the situation for what it is, and remind myself that just because it isn't for me, it doesn't mean other people can't do it.

Except the drug taking, and the partying, and everything that goes with it, is starting to be a constant in our conversations. There is one lad in the group, that it would appear is trying to gain as much knowledge about drugs as possible, and not the kind of knowledge where you learn about what they do to you, but more what's the best to take and why. The others in the group are only to happy to share their stories, and it is starting to be a bit of a competition, and I am really starting to dislike the whole thing. For not one second does anyone concentrate on the negative effects of drug taking. In all their eyes it appears to be a wonderful thing, and just the normal thing that people do when they go on a night out. Which may mean that in their eyes I am just not normal. Which isn't something I could careless about really.

Now I am not one to keep my opinions to myself, and many times during these conversations I have been asked for my views on certain situations, and I always remain honest, and tell them that I don't like drugs in any form. This usually gets dismissed because I have never tried them, and therefore don't know what I am talking about. Which is fine with me. I don't wish to educate them about the error of their ways, because it is only my opinon. They can do it if they like, and I can choose to hate it if I want to. This constant topic of conversation is making me want to distance myself from this bunch of people though. Even though I like them, and they are decent people, I just can't stand to listen to another situation glorifying recreational drug use. In my opinion, drugs are drugs, and I just don't want to subject myself to continuous conversations of the same nature. Maybe that is small minded of me, I don't know. But if I don't have to listen to such things, I really don't see why I should.