The ladies here will know what I am talking about, maybe even some of the men too. You know when you wake up, and you get ready, and no matter how long you spend getting ready, no matter how long you spend choosing your outfit, or doing your hair, or applying the war paint. You just don't feel right. That's how I feel today. Nothing is sitting right. I feel uncomfortable, and horrible, and I just want to hide away in fear of scaring small children and animals with my gruesome looks. It's not that I look horrible really, I just feel it, and if you feel it, there is no hiding away from it. A man could tell me I am the prettiest girl in the world, whilst down on one knee, declaring his undying love, and I still would dismiss him, for a poor retarded fool. In my opinion it is all about how you actually feel. If you feel confident and beautiful, then you are, and no one can take that away from you. If you feel yucky, then you just have to deal with it, and hope for a better day tomorrow.

So lets go through my list of problems with how I look today; first of all my hair. It is taking on a life of it's own, and will not be tamed into any kind of decent style. So it is just tied back...how exciting am I? A bloke once told me that your hair actually looks no different no matter how long you spend on it. So a girly, like me for example could spend 2 hours on her hair, and it would look no different if I had spent ten mins on it. I fear there may be some truth in this, but as I said it is about the way you feel. If I feel I look better after spending two hours on it then that's what I should do. Even though I don't....but you get the point. My next issue is with my boobies. I know I seem to have some kind of issue with them on a daily basis, but they just don't feel right. I can't explain it. No matter what I do to them they just don't look right. I've tried positioning them carefully, I've tried jumping up and down, I've tried different underwear, I've tried a different top. My boobs just don't feel right, and that is bothering me the most.

I also have problems with my nose (better not ask), my bum (which girl doesn't), my legs (easy to hide, since they are so short, grr!) and my eyes (lack of sleep). So you could say that I am just feeling completely unattractive, be glad you can't see me JU. So I have two options, I can hide away and write about my complaints on JU, or I can ignore these feelings and face the world. Hiding sounds good for now, so I apologise to you all for having to listen to my girly moaning, but you know it's a chick thing. Tomorrow it could work the opposite way, I could feel wonderful, like a gorgeous, hot, sexy woman, but look like a bag lady, who's just had a bad accident with the back of a bus. The only thing that is currently important is how I feel, and that is......crappy *sigh*